The more I concentrate on losing weight, the more I concentrate on HOW MUCH weight I need to lose and how FAT I feel/look...and that makes me feel UnLovable. "How can anyone put up with me when I'm this HUGE?" is just one of the stupid ideas that's been floating around in my head.
Losing weight isn't just about the food or exercise. It's about dealing with the behaviors and psychology that got me here in the first place. Being lovable is something ANYONE can be: ugly, fat, skinny, disabled, it doesn't matter! I can love myself even though I am not perfect. I can love myself BECAUSE I am not perfect. I know it in my head...I just need to work everyday to know it in my heart.
One thing that helps me sometimes is reminding myself why I love Spooky. She is by no means "perfect" -- whatever that means anyways. She is just her crazy, beautiful, ditzy self and I love her!
Spooky walking the fence like she owns the place. |
Spooky catching some Zs in the sunny spot |